There is a common agreement on that: opportunity is created by yourself, not given by others. Although I know it, I still lost myself when I go along the same route after you finally. Maybe all what I have done would seem a little crazy in other’s eyes, for I also think it’s crazy. Sometimes, I would show a mercy on myself, which may be the most tragic thing in the world I think.

I don’t know how people think of destiny, if it does have a kind of statement to destiny, now that we are doomed to have no chance to bloom, then, why would the god make such a cruel joke on me? Really existing in a certain field around me, but just couldn’t be as what I expect.

人們都說，機(jī)會不是別人給的而是自己創(chuàng)造的，這話一點沒錯。今天，雖然失算了，但我還有努力彌補(bǔ)失算后所帶來的些許遺憾，確實，機(jī)會是創(chuàng)造出來了，可，跟著機(jī)會的尾巴走的我，跟著跟著我就跟丟了……

站在車水馬龍的街頭，內(nèi)心映襯著周遭的潮濕和陰霾，失落落的。不知自己該何去何從，只是還傻傻地執(zhí)著著。養(yǎng)成了不屬于自己的習(xí)慣；也習(xí)慣了這種未果的執(zhí)著……，我想我應(yīng)該是快把自己完全給弄丟了，想想，倒有點覺得自己就是“行尸走肉”最好的詮釋，一個沒有靈魂的軀殼在四處游蕩著。

內(nèi)心在不斷的思忖著，但終究思忖不出個頭緒。一次次的幻想和美好在現(xiàn)實面前都顯得這般的蒼白和無力，不知，是不是到了該認(rèn)命的時候了，咳……

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